Rough Month

July is a month I would rather forget.

The month started off with the bad news of baby #4 probably not being viable.  Days later, Kiera came down with Bronchial Pneumonia.
I should know after 4.5 years with this sweet little girl that when she is naughty for days and days, something is wrong.
I thought it was a virus.
Shortly after that, I got the stomach flu.  The next day the miscarriage started.
Happy that it happened on it's own without a D&C, but sad that it had all come to this.  Days later my WHOLE family started vomiting.  Any and everywhere.
I began to ask "Why God Why?  Why must one have a miscarriage and a family with the stomach flu all at the same time?"
The only answer I got was at least all the vomit took my mind of the fact that baby #4 was no longer with us.
I may say it was a blessing in disguise, but it's not.  It's horrible.  It's sad and ...

I just want this month to be over.

I thought about not writing this post.  Too sad.  But, my blog is for me and my family and our memories.  Even though this is a memory that will always be tough when recalled, it still should be recorded. 

I will better by the next post.  I promise.